Temper

Symptoms

• Oppositionality (when not feeling heard or understood) ODD traits
• Rejection sensitivy
• Quick to rise when frustrated, leaves quickly too
• Seething and requiring an answer (for issues which impact self-esteem)
• Getting angry so that I can have my voice heard

Procrastination

Symptoms

• Know what to do, what needs to be done, can't bring myself to start
• Hard to get anything done before midday
• Making excuses to not contact people
• Constant mess with no real need to clean it up
  (unless people are coming over)
• Waiting till I can feel the pressure then hyper-focusing

Resources

• Overcome the wall of awful
• Wall of awful

Implusivity

Symptoms

• Sudden burning desire which you must drop everything for (to go to ikea RIGHT NOW drop everything 3 hours gone, but when deferred this seems far less important later)
• Hard controlling impulses around dopamine tasks (porn, computer games, weed)
• Constantly changing hobbies (seem to discard them when no longer novel)
• Doing other small self-identified tasks
  (fix the build, come up with a new organising system)
  (seem to choose novel or challenging tasks)

Inattention

Symptoms

• Have trouble concentrating on conversations
  (especially when emotional)
• Having trouble navigating highly abstract code
  (lots of windows, getting lost all the time)
• Wrote a 300 word social post, took an hour, and quintuple checked it and still had errors, had to repost 3 times for grammar (note emotional)
• Previous work report called out attention to detail for variable names (note not emotional)

Memory

Symptoms

• Where did I put my thing?
  (keys, wallet, phone, vape, etc.)
• Cant remember important sentence 30 seconds ago
• Trouble remembering age 7-9
• Very little memory before age 7
• Memory function seems modulated by emotion?

Sleep

Symptoms

• Great difficulty getting to sleep
• Great difficulty getting up
• Delayed sleep phase
  (ideal seems to be 2am-10am)
• Poor sleep quality
• Sleep Apnea

Time

Symptoms

• Chronically late (for social events, this has been modulated recently by a strong desire not to disappoint my friends)
• Misjudge time to get back to meeting from surfing
• Magical approach to time (I can put this task that will take 1-2 days off because I can cram it into half a day with the help of some adrenaline)
• Can't seem to do the same as others without spending much more time

Symptoms

• I remember the feeling of being watched or on a tv show when I was younger https://metro.co.uk/2018/07/13/dissociation-disorder-made-me-feel-like-i-was-watching-myself-in-a-movie-7708782/
  Maybe disassociation?
• Constant need to hum or sing: https://www.medhelp.org/posts/Undiagnosed-Symptoms/Constant-humming/show/1328223
• Bullet Three

Figeting

Symptoms

• Singing and humming
  (in spite of it annoying others)
• Restless legs (bouncing leg)
• Playing with things
  (pen flicking while working, throwing things while working round a supermarket, hardware store)
• Doodling (not so much without workbooks)
• Cracking my knuckles